Tuesday, December 24, 2013
My first video chat
Today, 12/24/13, I lost my video chat virginity! After some adjustments, even though due to dysphonia, I can't talk well, I did enjoy it!
Monday, September 2, 2013
Siblings
I have four siblings (I am the fourth of five children). Three I don't know and one I know and don't like.
I had to ask myself, "If I didn't share DNA (and parents) with these people, would I be at all interested in them and their lives?"
The answer is, "No. I wouldn't."
They are siblings, not family, Family is there to accept your love and care about you. My siblings do neither in my life, so contrary to how my parents raised us, my siblings are NOT my family.
I used to think that was very sad because it is contrary to how I was raised by my parents. So, is being openly homosexual.
Now I have to feel this way for my life to go forward with a degree of inner piece that I need to keep living.
Contrary to how my parents raised us, and in spite of my numerous and witnessed efforts over the years, my siblings are no closer to me than strangers.
I have not been hiding and the three I don't know have not tried to contact me. Perhaps, their feelings are the same as mine.
I had to ask myself, "If I didn't share DNA (and parents) with these people, would I be at all interested in them and their lives?"
The answer is, "No. I wouldn't."
They are siblings, not family, Family is there to accept your love and care about you. My siblings do neither in my life, so contrary to how my parents raised us, my siblings are NOT my family.
I used to think that was very sad because it is contrary to how I was raised by my parents. So, is being openly homosexual.
Now I have to feel this way for my life to go forward with a degree of inner piece that I need to keep living.
Contrary to how my parents raised us, and in spite of my numerous and witnessed efforts over the years, my siblings are no closer to me than strangers.
I have not been hiding and the three I don't know have not tried to contact me. Perhaps, their feelings are the same as mine.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
As much as I would love to believe there isn't; there is more discrimination within the gay community than anywhere else.
I am gay. I dealt with that decades ago (and not well I am told).
I am HIV+, undetectable, and dealing well with that. I have to say that I really hate seeing "ddf" in personal ads. I also cannot understand someone intentionally wanting this virus. As Sylvia Sidney said in 'An Early Frost,' "It's a disease, not a disgrace."
I am disabled. I used to be able to keyboard 120 wpm, now I'm lucky to do 5 wpm. The CT Scans and MRI's (all of which I have on CD) show that my cerebellum (which effects coordination) shrank. The doctors still don't know why. I have ataxia (which makes muscle control very difficult) and dysphonia.(which makes speech very difficult). I cannot walk, as such, I am confined to a wheelchair (which, as a gay man, is very unattractive). The wheelchair is where I face the most discrimination from the gay community. Disabled people have sexual abilities and desires, too. The gay community, as a whole, needs to learn that. I had to replace my unopened condoms because they were past the expiration date. I do pay attention to these things. I also have a great memory.
I don't need anyone to take care of me (I do quite well on my own), but I would like someone to love. It seems, because of my wheelchair, I am deemed unworthy of love. The gay community applauds my being out about my HIV, but shun my wheelchair (as far as I can tell). Please prove me wrong. After over four years, I would openly welcome that!
I am HIV+, undetectable, and dealing well with that. I have to say that I really hate seeing "ddf" in personal ads. I also cannot understand someone intentionally wanting this virus. As Sylvia Sidney said in 'An Early Frost,' "It's a disease, not a disgrace."
I am disabled. I used to be able to keyboard 120 wpm, now I'm lucky to do 5 wpm. The CT Scans and MRI's (all of which I have on CD) show that my cerebellum (which effects coordination) shrank. The doctors still don't know why. I have ataxia (which makes muscle control very difficult) and dysphonia.(which makes speech very difficult). I cannot walk, as such, I am confined to a wheelchair (which, as a gay man, is very unattractive). The wheelchair is where I face the most discrimination from the gay community. Disabled people have sexual abilities and desires, too. The gay community, as a whole, needs to learn that. I had to replace my unopened condoms because they were past the expiration date. I do pay attention to these things. I also have a great memory.
I don't need anyone to take care of me (I do quite well on my own), but I would like someone to love. It seems, because of my wheelchair, I am deemed unworthy of love. The gay community applauds my being out about my HIV, but shun my wheelchair (as far as I can tell). Please prove me wrong. After over four years, I would openly welcome that!
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
The disadvantages of being single (no matter who you are)!
I don't miss sex (nice as it would be). I do miss a man to love and to love me back.
One of the disadvantages of being single.
I miss someone embracing me as we sleep. I would like to have a conversation with.
What do y'all have to add?
One of the disadvantages of being single.
I miss someone embracing me as we sleep. I would like to have a conversation with.
What do y'all have to add?
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Will
My parents had five children. one of them being me. The other four children are my relatives, NOT IN ANY WAY MY FAMILY. I haven't seen any of them in over 20 years!
I believe family, those who give a damn, is chosen; relatives are not chosen.
Have a will, otherwise relatives, and their significant others, who may not give a damn, will legally make choices you don't want made! Your things will go to relatives you may not want to have them. Etcetera.
I believe family, those who give a damn, is chosen; relatives are not chosen.
Have a will, otherwise relatives, and their significant others, who may not give a damn, will legally make choices you don't want made! Your things will go to relatives you may not want to have them. Etcetera.
FOR YOUR OWN SAKE HAVE A WILL!
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Saturday, March 30, 2013
I have a new pet peeve - automatic doors that close on me.
Seriously, does anyone honestly care if a hospital truly screws up, as long as it doesn't happen to them? Judging by the answers at my much shared website http://www.dispeoplelive.net The answer is that they don't care at all. I don't remember the whole saying, but it ends (I am paraphrasing) and when they came for me - there was no one left to speak for me.
Seriously, does anyone honestly care if a hospital truly screws up, as long as it doesn't happen to them? Judging by the answers at my much shared website http://www.dispeoplelive.net The answer is that they don't care at all. I don't remember the whole saying, but it ends (I am paraphrasing) and when they came for me - there was no one left to speak for me.
Friday, March 29, 2013
Please, I emplore you, read and comment on my website at http://www.dispeoplelive.net
Otherwise, 3/29/13, I am waiting on a USB to lightening cord from the Apple Store.
Otherwise, 3/29/13, I am waiting on a USB to lightening cord from the Apple Store.
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