I am gay. I dealt with that decades ago (and not well I am told).
I am HIV+, undetectable, and dealing well with that. I have to say that I really hate seeing "ddf" in personal ads. I also cannot understand someone intentionally wanting this virus. As Sylvia Sidney said in 'An Early Frost,' "It's a disease, not a disgrace."
I am disabled. I used to be able to keyboard 120 wpm, now I'm lucky to do 5 wpm. The CT Scans and MRI's (all of which I have on CD) show that my cerebellum (which effects coordination) shrank. The doctors still don't know why. I have ataxia (which makes muscle
control very difficult) and dysphonia.(which makes speech very difficult). I cannot walk, as such, I am confined
to a wheelchair (which, as a gay man, is very unattractive). The wheelchair is where I face the most discrimination from the gay community. Disabled people have sexual abilities and desires, too. The gay community, as a whole, needs to learn that. I had to replace my unopened condoms because they were past the expiration date. I do pay attention to these things. I also have a great memory.
I don't need anyone to take care of me (I do quite well on my own), but I would like someone to love. It seems, because of my wheelchair, I am deemed unworthy of love. The gay community applauds my being out about my HIV, but shun my wheelchair (as far as I can tell). Please prove me wrong. After over four years, I would openly welcome that!
